Saying a Long Slow Goodbye To My Last Drug

In the late 1990s, I became a vegan (which means you don’t eat anything that comes from something with a face) during the “mad cow disease” farming crisis here in the UK. Cows were shot in the head and then burnt in public and their suffering – as well as the suffering of the human victims of the disease – were plastered all over the news every day for months on end. I just couldn’t stomach being a part of a system which treated animals so shabbily anymore. It was a horrible chapter in British farming history.

I made the right choice for my soul back then but failed to make the right choices for my body.

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Dealing With Depression in Recovery

At some point in every addict’s recovery, we will experience some degree of depression. That’s just a given. Before I discuss that though, I need to say up front that I don’t personally go along with the current medical establishment’s huge list of types of depression believing that these lists/ types of depression are created to get as much profit from vulnerable people as drug companies can. Instead I will say that in my view, there are 3 types: mild, moderate and severe. I define ‘mild’ or ‘reactive’ depression as the low we experience as a result of something

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Celebrating Love in Recovery

Since today is Valentines Day, I wanted to celebrate those current or ex couples who have gone a few rounds with the Beast that is addiction and come out the other side of that baptism of fire. As we can all testify, addiction is a respecter of no-one and nothing so for two people to survive to a place where there is still love between them – platonic or romantic – then my hat is off to them both.

Some couples do make it romantically if both of them are solidly on the path of recovery. If that is you… Fantastic. Good luck to you both. If you keep your side of the street clean one day at a time and stay focused on just your own business and not your partners, there is no reason on earth why you can’t go the distance in your relationship.

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Are Your Children Watching Porn in School?

I came across this Buzzfeed.com webpage from August 2014 the other day about what the Top 13 Most Popular Porn Sites were in the world. Intrigued by who the visitors were to each of these websites – in my continuous journey to understand more about porn addiction – I decided to do some digging in Alexa.com. I was utterly stunned by what I found.

The bottom line was that 11 out of the 13 sites (all Tube sites) mentioned had the browsing location of visitors as ‘School’. I made THIS VIDEO to show the audience demographics for each of the 13 sites to explain more fully what I mean.

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Fear Can Kill Us

As recovering addicts, our lives depend upon which vibration we give our attention to on a moment by moment and daily basis – fear or trust.  Fear sends us backwards and is subject to the urge of death whereas trust moves us forward and is subject to the urge of life.

By fear I am referring to the acronym for F.E.A.R – “Forgetting Every Available Resource”. Often when we are in fear, we do exactly that. We forget we have an abundance of resources – both internally (ie: our higher selves or soul) as well as externally (ie: support networks of various types) we can use to move us away from that which is trying to get us

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Breaking Away From the Past

Okay so none of us have an unblemished past. Because of the nature of active addiction, we often find ourselves acting more out of our lower self than higher self. That just comes with the territory of addiction as addicts nearly always have self hatred and fear as the blood stream of their addiction(s) – myself included back in the day. It’s also the case that addicts are very often damaged people even before they become addicted to a wet, dry or behavioral drug and then become far more so as their addiction careers progress. This often leaves addicts in a position where they intentionally or unintentionally damage others because hurt people hurt people. That’s just a fact of life.

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