We Teach People How To Treat Us

We teach people how to treat usWhether we realize it or not, our every action, verbal or non-verbal, teaches and trains people how to treat us – whether that is a loved one or a public entity such as a government or the media.

When we feel like we are the filth under the shoe of life as many active addicts do, we give off low self esteem vibes which tell people to treat us accordingly. Likewise, when we are flowing with humble self love and soul-filled confidence when we are thriving in our recovery, we give off the polar opposite vibes which tell people to treat us

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Taking the Rough with the Smooth

A teenage violated by Max HardcoreLife can bring 4 seasons in one day sometimes. This morning I had to drag myself through rough research on the pornography industry and study of Max Hardcore in particular – legendary porn producer who takes great pride in the work he does initiating new teenage porn performers into the industry by defiling, degrading, abusing, “consentually raping” and brutalizing them. He says they are “gagging for” (or words to that effect) this type of brutal sex. Does this Max Hardcore initiate look

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Gratitude is the Key

Having an attitude of gratitudeG.K. Chesterton once wrote “I would maintain that thanks are the highest form of thought and that gratitude is happiness doubled by wonder.” I know now what he means by that after many years of struggling to understand the purpose of gratitude. At first I thought gratitude was about people pleasing some deity which I took great exception to… “Why on earth does “God” need us humans bowing

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Take Your Broken Wings and Learn To Fly

Billi's Wedding3 weeks before my wedding in the woods in November 2011, my then fiancé had a relapse of his alcohol addiction. He was admitted to hospital on a drip and had severe delirium tremors after 16 days of the bender. He was in bad shape but not as bad as the man in the next bed who was carried out in a box heading for the mortuary. He made the wedding on the 16th December by the skin of his teeth. I went through with the wedding to honor my promise of being his official next of kin

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The Only Way Out of Rough Times is Through Them

If you're going through hell, keep goingWherever you are in your addiction career or recovery from addiction – or for that matter – wherever you are in life – if it is tough going know that the only way out is through. It’s the only way to get to the other side.

I’m currently walking through the choice to study pornography addiction and the pornography industry for the next Recovery Kit and find myself deep in the bowels

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Mind Chatter VS Dark Chatter

Which wolf will you feed? Our minds – led by our controlling egos – have to feel as if they are in control 24 hours a day every day. It does this with a constant stream of commentary on every conceivable thing imaginable it encounters – past, present and future. This is “normal” for our times seeing as we are bombarded with so much fodder for it to sink itself into day in day out. This is not “thinking” though. This is “commentating”. Period. Henry Ford once said “Thinking is the hardest work there is, which is probably the reason why so few engage in it.”

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