After working with, and being around, many thousands of active and recovering addicts through the years I have come to the conclusion that ALL addicts – when in escalating active addiction – are driven by what they, and myself, often term a “Dark Passenger”.
To be human means to have both a soul and a shadow self. The yin and the yang. This is what makes us human. This is the human condition. We are both Jekyll and Hyde when the situation calls for it. And this is normal. Each day we are given choices for which one we will be. What our choices are each moment then determines where we end up in life and in what kind of character – dark or light…
What happens in escalating active addiction however is that because addicts tend only to feed their shadow self (with things like resentment, fear, hatred, arrogance, ego, intolerance, self centeredness etc), instead of their soul (with things like trust, gratitude, hope, love, faith, generosity, humility etc) they end up having a bloated shadow self. That’s just the nature of the beast that is addiction. That bloatedness then ends up morphing into a grotesque caricature of their shadow self which then begins to feel like an entity within them. The “entity” then ends up in the driver’s seat of everything that person does from then on in which invariably is more negativity as the persons’ addiction escalates further.
The only way to slim down a bloated “entity” driven shadow self and remove its talons from your soul is to get clean of the wet, dry or behavioral drug you are addicted to. It’s as simple as that. There’s no other way round it. Both negative and positive cannot occupy the same space at once so the negativity has to go if a person desires change.